Homebase in Palawan

“So, who smuggled you here?” the Swiss guy asked. He’s been stranded in Palawan for about a year.

“The same guy who smuggled you here,” I said. We were talking of our common friend.

We were at the clubhouse, facing the vast, deep blue ocean, at around four in the morning. Frankly, I woke up at three and had to sneak in the kitchen for some food. I skipped dinner the night before and was just zonked in bed from the land and boat travel.


The island’s clubhouse. They serve some of Palawan’s best seafood cuisine.

And this guy Bruno, when I found him, he was semi-drunk, forehead on the table, one hand on a tall glass of rumcoke.

“Why you alone at this hour? Your friends left you?” I said.

“Nah,” he replied. “They all went to bed. I thought I’d wait for the sunrise.”


Our secret place, one of Palawan’s 1,800 islands.

“You almost broke my heart there,” I said. “The way you clung onto that drink, you looked like you lost everything.”

“Do you mind?” he said, pointing at the seat next to me. He walked over with his baby rumcoke and sat beside me.

He told me he was living the life of a big boss in Bonifacio Global City, handling his two companies, for about three years. And then the pandemic happened.

His company produced bags for travel and business and sold about 60,000 pieces monthly. When COVID arrived, he went bankrupt. I didn’t ask about his other company.


This is homebase for the time being.

“Don’t worry about it,” I said. “We almost lost our family business too. So many things changed, but things will shift back to where you’re supposed to be.”

For the next two hours we talked about his real estate project in Palawan. I supported him and told him that’s how our host grew their property portfolio, which includes this island.

I gave him tips on making it big in real estate in the Philippines, and how he should streamline the legal documents and paperwork. After all, my sister has been in the industry for more than a decade.


The island is off-grid and runs on solar power.

“It’s a lot of money, especially now when the prices are in a slump,” I said. “Many city folks are looking for properties to move into paradise.”

He mentioned he was creating the foundations of SEO on his website, and that his only problem was finding people he could trust.

We were relishing the power of AI to easily write trending long articles for search engines. So many things online were changing and we believed that, like money, anything can be good or evil depending on how you use it.


Plenty of water activities here. I want to see the leatherback turtles soon.

“I wish I could find people like you,” he said. “I love the energy when things are just freely flowing, you know?”

The horizon was beginning to glow, hinting the start of dawn, and I told him that we should start hiking to the cliff now or else we’ll miss the sunrise.

I told him to meet me at the foot of the stairs going to the top of the cliff. I went to my room to get my flashlight, and by the time we met at the stairs, he had a heavy speaker with him.


The beach assigned to me keeps a two-storey hideout behind the coconut trees.

“What the hell,” I said. “You gonna play music up there?”

“And why not?” he said. When we started hiking, he was unbalanced to one side because of the speaker. The thing probably weighed 10 pounds.

There were about 200 steps to get to the top of the cliff. The higher we got, the more I was reminded of a similar island cove and cliff feature in Indonesia.

The hike was so steep and we were so inadequately prepared that we had to stop once in a while to catch our breath.

“My thigh muscles hurt like a bitch,” I whined. I hadn’t climbed mountains since the pandemic. At least not this steep.


It’s only accessible by kayak, but we’ll create a path through the cliffs soon.

Bruno seemed stronger than me, even with the speaker he was carrying. By the time we reached the peak he set the speaker down and said, “I regret bringing that.”

I laughed. He surrendered on the platform and lay under the vanishing stars. The sun hasn’t come up yet. I marveled at how the site was a good place for sunrise yoga and sunset cocktails.

In due time, he was snoring.

“Hey, Bruno. Drunkboy,” I said, after some time. “Get up or you’ll miss the sunrise.”

I had to wake him up several times before he got back to reality. He almost forgot he’s on a cliff. I mean, he could easily fall off and get butchered by the spikes.

The horizon was starting to turn orange, and you just know that the sun was going to burst.


I’m teaching yoga here in 2024. Of course, there’s more. <3

“I have to go back down now,” I said to Bruno.

“Noooo,” he said. “You’re going to leave me here?”

“Yes, I’m suddenly craving for hot chocolate,” I said. “I need to have my hot chocolate.”

I almost forgot I spent most of my sunrises with hot chocolate. At that time, I couldn’t understand my craving.

“Why don’t you play your music,” I said, “and maybe have some time for yourself?”


The secret island at golden hour.

He frowned. Clouds were beginning to block the view.

“See now, you’ll have to wait for maybe one more hour for the sun to rise above those clouds.”

At breakfast, he showed me his sunrise pictures and the ocean view I missed. Regardless of the clouds, he enjoyed it.

“You lucky boy,” I said.

// 12 Dec 2023

Briefly Human


@muatalahotel, one of my favorite hangout spots in El Nido.

It’s kind of bizarre to be caught up with the world, and have a sense of the collective grind where nearly everyone is immersed and distracted. I don’t consider myself any better than anyone, though I used to think this way. Every time another egg shell of my ego cracks and breaks open, I feel myself expanded outside looking in, as if all the world is caught in a circus inside my heart.

I prefer to deal with my own privacy and my own life. I have avoided so many things such as cities and the corporate life for the past several years, maybe even more than a decade. And while I can tolerate noise and distractions, I still prefer the oceanside where things are open and breezy, where there isn’t much of an etheric noise in the atmosphere.

What do you call it? My friend Eduard, a writer, and another friend, Sam, an exorcist, explained these clearance in the atmosphere as the absence of human noise and the presence of the higher [5D] matrix. When we’re in this kind of place, all our senses open and we can commune with the divine side of life. Things like seeing the future and speaking with animals would be common and ordinary experiences.

I remember my ignorance, more than ten years ago, and how I would absorb other people’s and places’ vibe as if they are my own. I suck them in like a void in the sink, like any empath, and would need several days of recovery. And when people do bad things to me, these negative feelings just stay stuck in my body until I recognize they are not mine.

Sometimes this takes years. Other times, decades.

My childhood traumas are some of these, what with the absence of my dad, who was in prison during most of my childhood. When he returned, I feel that he got so messed up inside that all he wanted was to live his life. To drink, spend time with friends, and make out with as many women as possible. So even when he was out of prison already, he was still absent at home.

All the trouble I went through as a kid he could’ve prevented if only he was there. I mean, I’ve never known I have childhood traumas until I started experiencing odd sensations in my mind and body. Yoga and meditation cleared all these things. My mom told me to go to a priest to clear my sins, and I did, and still I would be pestered by these foreign energies that aren’t mine.

Took me years to understand that my protective aura may have been compromised when I was a child. And all those men who attacked me turned me into a monster attacking myself. The only defenses I learned later on were to wear a wedding ring, run away, or just seek the right people.

I still have my split personality. I try to make it less prominent as much as I can, but every time I reach a place of wholeness, I feel so ordinary and unlike myself. That feeling of egolessness like that of Buddha or Christ. It felt so organized and predictable, I could walk out of life the same way I walk out of predictable movies.

On a side note, I spent some time with snakes the other day. They were the beastly companions of my friend’s neighbor. She’s only 17 and has eight snakes, among her other animal friends. I petted some of them, and had one looping around my neck and hands. It was rather therapeutic on my back, the sensory massage with a reptile. It was so tactile and enchanting, I could see myself living with a python.

// 05 Sep 2023

Notes on Travel Writing

I am having a break from eight years of travel writing. I am still deciding if I want to continue it. Either way, I feel blessed to have fulfilled a writer’s dream. Here are some things I learned on the road:

1. Like a child, I kept my eyes open for wonder. There were times when I felt jaded, and it was because I took my assignments for granted. So I learned to leave all my expectations at the hotel.

2. I saw the world as it was — the awe, beauty, and conservation or destruction of nature and culture, and people’s relationship with the environment. And then I started to care and learned to love the Earth and all Her aspects.

3. I learned to travel light and often move from one location to another, wake up at dawn, and explore all day with my team. Some days I felt like life was a dream, as I woke up to a new place, indoor or outdoor, each morning.

4. I recognized people’s aspirations as a community, and I (we) had to be adaptable, patient, and humble — to see things from their perspective and grow from there.

5. The past and the future didn’t exist when I was traveling. Everything was vivid, sensory driven, and in motion with the present. The life of freedom can be intoxicating.

6. Many moments were too fleeting to capture, such as witnessing a manta ray the size of a car, having our boat chased by dolphins, or nearly slipping from the rim of an active volcano.

7. I had to be prepared for the wild and the extraordinary, to eat that giant sea urchin or fried tarantula. To bungee jump from a 200ft drop, or trek 10 hours to a secluded little village with huge tracks of weed.

8. I was exposed to all sorts of creative people — they’re the best guys and gals to collab with. Probably some the craziest I met. Many unexpectedly stayed with me as lifetime friends.

I still have dreams of being part of a natgeo team, and learning professional photography, although I detest lugging equipment around.

Even in my short break now I am aching to move again and live the life of adventure. With travel writing, I never felt like I “worked” a day in my life.

// 04 Jun 2023